Long time....I know

SO it's been awhile, and by awhile I mean months, but hey, when you're busy, you're busy! I just had to find time to share this with someone.....it won't be that funny to most of you, but if you have any experience teaching you will find this hillarious!

The Greatest Teacher

“Then Jesus took his disciples up the mountain and gathering them around him, he taught them saying:

“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven,

Blessed are the meek.

Blessed and they that mourn,

Blessed are the merciful,

Blessed are they who thirst for justice,

Blessed are you when persecuted,

Blessed are you when persecuted,

Blessed are you when you suffer,

Be glad and rejoice for your reward is great in heaven.”

Then Simon Peter said . . . .

            Do we have to write this down?

And Andrew said . . . . .

            Are we supposed to know this?

And Phillip said . . . .

            I don’t have any paper.

And Bartholomew said . . . .

            Do we have to turn this in?

And John said . . . .

            The other disciples didn’t have to learn this.

And Matthew said . . . .

            Can I go to the boy’s room?

And Judas said . . .

            What does this have to do with real life?

Then one of the Pharisees who was present asked to see Jesus’ lesson plan

            And inquired of Jesus . . . .

            Where is your anticipatory set and your objectives in the cognitive domain?

And Jesus wept

Love ya'll

Sari

Ok, so here's the warning....this is going to be a long long rant...it's not really ment for anyone to read persay, it's just something that I need to get off my chest and since no one involved knows I have a xanga account, this is where I'm choosing to rant.

Ok, you've been warned....

So the last two days have been horrible! I'm so angry and frustrated right now I want to cry, in fact I have cried. My hot water heater died wednesday evening right when I needed to take a shower. I had to boil water to take a bath. It's $300 to get a new one and I don't have an extra $300 stashed away during the holidays! So that just made me stressed out. I took 100 pre-k through 2nd graders skating yesterday and guess what, none of them had been skating before, they all fell and took me out with them. I have bruises on my knees, elbow, and shins. I have never been so sore in my life. When I woke up this morning my mother called me to tell me that the carpet I'm having installed in 2 bedrooms was lost so she went by and picked out a different pattern for me and it would be there in the afternoon...this is for MY house, she makes me soooo angry when she pulls this crap and acts like I'm still 12 and she's making all the choices in my life for me. She promised me that the stuff she picked out was brown and tan like the original choice so I decide not to press it. While waiting for the carpet layers a pipe came loose under my kitchen sink. The carpet layers arrive 4 hours late and guess what color the carpet my mother picked out for MY house ended up being....oh that's right, not brown but green. I HATE the color green. But that's what's glued to my floors now. So I'm still trying to be cool with the whole situation when I loose power. It's not enough that I lost power for over a week during the Ice storm but it has to go out again! I'm so frustrated by this point but still I'm trying not to loose it. So I text this person that I'm trying to be friends with. Everyone who knew him told me when I met him that he was this great peron to have as a friend. However, I have not had that much success in building a friendship. Anyways, I text said friend and ask what they are up to. The friend texts back and says they are going to a movie and invite me to go with. I send reply to save me a seat and I head towards the theater. When I get there I can't find him. I send him a text asking where he is......no reply....so I pick a row and sit down thinking surely he'll call me or text me and ask where I am...nothing....previews over....movie starts...nothing....I'm sitting all by myself in a movie theater watching Sweeny Todd slit peoples throat and about half way through the movie I hear this really annoying laugh so I turn down my row to see who it is and they guy laughing isn't my friend but my friend is sitting right next to him...by the time the movie was over I was just so mad I left without saying a word...I hoped that somehow he missed that I was sitting in the same row ALONE and just thought I decided not to go....in that situation wouldn't the right thing to do would be to call your friend and see what happend? Yeah...didn't happen, and I'm willing to put money on the fact that it won't. See, he's the nice guy type...has no intention of being my friend, but doesn't want to be impolite so when I try to be his friend he's polite...but it seems perfectly clear he has no wish to be my friend.

So that's the end of my bad day...I warned you, this would be a rant.

Sari

exhausted

I am tired....more tired than I've ever been in my entire life. I've got so many plates spinning right now I'm just waiting for one to figurativly crash. I am physically and mentally exhausted. I hurt in places I didn't know could hurt. I've stopped counting the bruises, they've just become an ever changing part of my apperance. I no longer even look when someone asks where the bruises come from, I immediately know and say it came from school. I'm broke, so so so broke, and school is so expensive. I wake before the sun and sleep well after it's gone down. I tie shoes, break up fights, hear the f-bomb, n word, and the bird on a daily basis. I watch children melt to pieces  from a single bumb and watch to crack skulls over an unintentional comment.

Did I mention that I absolutely love my kids and couldn't think of a single better ministry to be involved in?

Sari

So it's been awhile since I updated, I'm just very tired all the time...my students are crazy and I really love them alot but, I've suspended 3 students, one for drugs, one for weapons, and one for assaulting a teacher (me). Did I mention I teach 2nd grade? My students need so much help, even my challenge students want to please me though which is weird. For some of them they just snap and really can't control their anger...it's so exhausting trying to get through a lesson when half of my students can't read are so angry about life that they can't control themselves.

Help!

Sari

too tired to continue

I really want to quit So, I pretty much hate my job. I had worked with poverty kids in shawnee so I thought I was prepared for this but these kids are on a whole different level of behavior and academic problems. I count down the mins before plan period, lunch, and the end of the day. The only thing that settles them down is screaming and I think my anger hurts me more than it does them. I am exhausted in every sense of the word, mentally, physically, and most importantly emotionally. I hate being mean everyday, I hate being angry, and I hate having to make half of the class suffer because the other half can't get it together. This class couldn't keep a first grade teacher for longer than 4 months last year, so essentially they didn't get first grade. I've got kids on all levels from pre k through 3rd grade. I don't know how to teach so many levels. The only way I can get any teaching done is if I do whole group activities, but I loose half of my students everytime I do that. I just don't know what to do. There's a possibilty that one teacher will get trimmed at the end of the week (get moved to another school site) and I'm seriously thinking about volunteering to go. I don't know how much more I can handle. Pray for me please, Sari